Are we really together?

Remebering the time when i started chasing you,
i was addicted and couldnt stop,like sniffing superglue.
I worked hard for you and folded my stars
Wishing we were together next year in the same class.
My fingers were tired and slippery from exhaustion
but never gave up and followed instructions
give what i need to give and do what i need to do
try my best,no matter how blue
but how hard life was when we couldnt go out
i tried to ask but fate never allowed.

Insecurity filled me,didnt know if you were playing
after all wasnt i juz a dog in training?
Doing whatever you told me to do,without a word of complaint
what do i get in return,temporary love on washable paint.
The happiest day of my life,i always wonder
was it part of a scheme,for me to later plunder?
You dunno how hard it is for me to sleep every night
thinking of u in every possible sight.
im so deeply in love i dun even noe what happened to me,
was i bewitched or am i turning crazy.

I try so hard to give in and keep our relationship going
but what i get in return more and more misforgivings.
Do you care?Do you even know?
i started with a fire and now left with a glow.
I keep saying those 3 words because im afraid to think,
what would happen if i didnt and blinked.
Would you be gone and vanish from my vision
i wont move on,there wont be diffusion.
I really love you and i think you understand
but after all thats happen,it really makes no sense.
I got you but now its worse
it feels like my heart is going to burst.
After so long not even a date
whats the price i haven paid?

Bottling it all to myself,now i cant take it and gotta explode
can you stop making me feel so remote.
Im so lonely kept on waiting for you
but fate din allow it,all i could do was drool,
kept on dreaming bout the dream day but it never came,
all it did was make me pain.
However regardless of my feelings,those 3 words will always apply
I love you.It will always be my reply.

I'm really hurt,i dunno if you care or not.Im juz speechless.The last sentence will always be there for you though but i really will appreciate it if you make a bit more effort?