Wednesday, November 26, 2008 ;; 2:26 AM
All this time did you really tink i forgot?
8 oct.Just after our EOY streamings.
i asked you.after all my hard work,with all my believings.
Your answer was one,which was the best and worthy
But however,that was our happiest moment for things turned dirty.
Arguments,quarrels,fights shortly follow.
we were no strangers to them but it was too much to swallow.
You said things didnt work out for us.
I changed,quickly, i needed to chase your bus.
We are now friends,with special feelings for me i dont know bout you.
But why we broke up,i still dont have a clue.
Somemore reasons were shit like you werent ready and it wastnt meant to be.
But what crap was that you were ready and i didnt want to be free.
You did so much,you cared,you compromised.
Now u are still doing so,so what for the reasons you fortified.
It wasnt meant to be?looking back,how happy were we?
Yes we had quarrels fights excetra but the happy moments were there,couldnt u see?
You yourself said dreaming back how funny (=
So isnt it proof.Our happy moments.They were extrmely happy,no matter how corny.
I was the one who started,although mended the quarrels.
And for the sake of your happiness,i even decided on squirrels?
I think we both have given alot.To that relationship.
What we give is always what we get?BULLSHIT!
We gave our best,we barely lasted.
So now i changed,and i want us clustered.
Back together,definately for better not for worse
I assure you this bag will never ever burst.
I swear im never gonna treat you bad cos i never wanna see you sad.
But the promise bout doubling your happiness,halving your sorrows were bad.
You were the one who did it for me instead.So after i changed,
Im gonna swear it all over again,its after wad happened,its after it rained.
Sunshine girl right?your smile really forces the rain away.
Im doing the best now,for the ending in the book.the last word.Hooray.
Our story has ended?no its just the beginning.
And im definately continueing the story,SUPER ASSURING.
Whatever happens yes we wont know
But i dont believe,we are gonna have another row
Cos i have changed,to be no one else.
But your personal boyfriend,thats wad i tell
I know you inside out,and you do too
We understand each other,even though i have been a stupid fool
Mutual feelings and understanding,
isnt that all we need,NOw that both of us are interesting
Since both of us have changed slightly,definately more compatitable =XX
I love you i want you back,and im sure the ending is very considerable.
Saying you dont care,i think you will anyway
Because im sure a love that strong,will never fade away.
I have changed,you have waited.
Let me show you,what we deserved.
I want you to always be happy with me.You know what i did for you too le.I will work hard.Take as long as you want.My love wont fade away that easily.I believe u loved me as much too so i have no worries.I trust you.
Thursday, November 20, 2008 ;; 3:54 AM
Most likely my last post.I realli dunno wad to update le.So many sad and happy memories (= i dun feel like updating anymore too.occasionally come back reply those revive tags ba.so yea.Thanks for asking ppl.Many asked so u all dun need fight say i asked firs (= im ok.Its ok.I learnt important lessons.I gotten over it.Thank you too eleanor.(= my life is well.quite clear now (= not crystal anymore since some1 said that...I chose it cos,i thought it would be better for everyone.If it isnt nice,den i tink it would mean im juz a jerk blah.but,i dun tink i lied or dui bu qi anyone.I never regarded myself as nice before anyw.So yea.If u think im juz a hypocrite bastard,i dunno.i think its better for everyone like that,squirrel or not,it makes no diff to us.Its juz to be...well nice again but well other ppl have their own feelings.Everyone will think differently who i am.Flirt,Jerk,Nice,Faithful,Good boyfren,badboyfren,BHB,bully.It all matters who is the person right?nth more to say.
People i want to specially thank.
TiffanyChan:Thankyou bestfren.Eugene house.I make ur class tee wet u still bear wif me (= and sentosa.I dun dare make wet again le (= thx for offering though.You are a realli gd and important best fren (= lucky nex year u still in same class.Will be your best fren forever kay (= all my memories wif you are happy ones.and dun forget.tuition.im not gonna go easy xDD so yea.Arigato Gozaimashta.
Jessica:Lol.We got much to talk bout in terms of those problems right xDDD so many things we talked bout.Well im glad you are happy now (= wish u and him all the best yea?May the story last forever.And although diff class.im gonna sms u late at night i tell u when i cant sleep (= u better reply.we still can talk bout anything.Thanks for being there at sentosa too.Sharing our opinions really helped (=
Huijun:Your straightforwardness?Not a problem man xD tats the gd point bout u too.U keep talking bout all these stuff so straightforward it seems so easy.It isnt but u really gave me the mindset to think straight.optimism.Thank you for being there for me at sentosa too (= dun worry nex year same class we still can talk talk talk xDDD gossip time yea?So you have to bear wif me for 2 more years >< SRY.
Beryln:though i always tease you about ur height relax (= girls dun need to be tall.As you can tell.Its credits for the sentosa people (= So yea.Thanks too.Although u were hyper when every1 else was emoing @_@
Lydia:The last sentosa kia (= dun tink so much ok?im alright now.Dun tink too much of wad i say kay.when i emo wad i say is seriously power but when im happy my words are still power (= everythings always alright in the end (= okay?look at me now xD aint i normal.Yea.So juz do what u tink is right,and believe (=
Eleanor:Dont think you will expect it but thanks for being there when i needed you.Thanks for being such a good fren now (= you realli cleared my mind.thanks.Dun worry.Nex year same class plenty of time to get closer.It doesnt matter wad happened last time right xD
Zoey:Recently went ur house.its been great knowing u too (= go ur house be ur tennis coach.Be a basketball player.I realli lyk exercising at ur house (= and yea.i was still part of some pictures (= nex year same class.Thanks for talking bout her wif me and some other things.I hope i was a good fren to u back (=
Jonathan:FIRST BOY!but definitely not before them.Last month keep going ur house.Last time our relationship as frens a bit rocky yea?sometimes find each other a nag.but this month im sure things have changed (= rock band-ing at ur house was fun.and talking bout relationships.Dun worry.Now we are all sort of alright already right?juz get used to it.part and parcel of life.You are a great fren (= hopefully can stay over more nex year haha
Weijie:This month walaoeh.Closer than ever hor (= onli as close as sec 1 beginning.miss this type of fun.We can talk bout anything ok?and i will still be ur advisor and matchmaker.Believe me.You can do it.GAMBATE!
Kenan:Unexpected appearance smallboy (= thx for peiing me to pon council duty etc =XX and the council camp u realli were the best companion.We can play more bball anytime yea?Wish you gd luck.1 way 2 say 3 words 4 you.Continue the Story.Forever bitch (=
OngBear:FATS!you always so hilarious u dun even know it u lagger.i really enjoyed time with you (= every moment.u never made me angry pek chek or sad.not even close.You are a great laughing partner (= thx.Will miss sitting on ur lap.
Sheena and Camilla:Even though i din really hang out wif u all much this year le.u two horny freaks are still some hell of my frens (= you all quite funny la hor (= nex year u 2 and zoey diff class le.Dun sad.BFF's rite? (=
Im gonna post.One last poem.
My lower sec life has ended for around 15 days?
I will still remember all the times,those happy times where we played.
Like kids without a care in the world,naive people
Still testing each other stupid little IQ riddles.
We grown up well these past 2 years havent we?
Now we can even treasure each other,appreciate what we be.
Regardless funny jokers like ong bear or smartasses like sheena
These 2 years have passed so enjoyably,because of one thing ma.
Friends.I will miss all of you.SURELY.
because all our memories,will be engraved in my heart SINCERELY.
Chibai thinking back now what a jerk i have been sometimes.
Hitting lydia,or teasing poeple,crossing over the line.
I realli appreciate,what all of you have done for me.
Regardlesss of what we did,all of us seemed to be,
the most united of frens,that 2e5 could possibly bring.
Crapping everyday,including craps with no link.
Thank you everyone,for giving me a memorable sec school life
but still,everyone now has to pay a price.
Seperating,banding cos of our results.
so yea.I really treasure,all our faults.
Im gonna be so busy for the whole of december
Im afriad other than now,i cannot remember.
All our happy moments,all our nice talks.
Our chalet.thats all thats left for my pokes.
I will remember all of you forever,thanks for being my friends,more of my family.
Seriously.Thank you every1.Arigato Mina.I feel emo today so im posting this (= it might be crap.But i tink all the 2e5 ppl will agree wif me bout this crap.
Saturday, November 15, 2008 ;; 2:30 AM
Break ups.Uesless,I want you back.
Remembering the happy times we shared.
It seemed so recent,so blissful,how much we cared.
8 October right after the examinations,
it happened so happily,without even preparations.
Holding your hand seemed to be the happiest thing,
The only type of joy that only you could bring.
Still so childish,ranting on about forever.
When we were still having troubles getting together.
My wish came true,we were in the same class.
But then i guess i was too much,a pain in the arse.
Today the sky seemed so blue
I didnt know,had no clue.
A small quarrel came thought nothing big would happen.
The question came,so sad yet so apparent.
It was my fault,all along,
If you were happy from this,then i too will not prolong.
Promises i made,broken,leaving your heart in shatters.
I apologise,but then again.there were still endless rattles.
You were not ready,thats an invalid excuse.
Because i was the one that was of no use.
Thank you for all the efforts you have made.
I assure you it was working,but i didnt appreciate what you paid.
Looks like i lied again,bout lasting together
But letters,pictures,memories.They last forever.
I cherished you,loved you,but i was too blinded.
By my desire to last longer,the present was neglected.
I want you back baby,
That im not taking back.
Out of everything i have said so far,some true,some false.
This i can garuntee,will never be lost.
All my poems,pictures,I shall keep.
Awaiting your arrival,whenever u wanna peek.
I got nothing to say.I didnt break,
But i will always respect your decision,that i wont take.
My part to play in this relationship,it still goes on.
Your decisions are the most impt again.but this time,mine will never be wrong.
Regardless of what you do to me,my resolve is affirmed.
You can bet as much as you want i wont give up,that will 100% be confirmed.
When you did it,it felt like the end of the world.
Weijie,Jonathan,Eugene,I understood the qualms of my peers.
Flashbacks came to me,memories playing without a sound.
Tears flooded,rolled,it felt so terrible,like being smashed to the ground.
Is it fate,juz awhile ago u were still in my arms.
But now everything was gone.wiping my face with my really wet palms.
I wondered how u were feeling,sad?happy?
I didnt know,i couldn't know.I was too crappy.
I couldnt even understand the girl i loved for many months.
Im a failure,and this was the worst flunk.
My heart was so torn,i didnt even know what hurt.
Get up,live life on,from my frens thats what i heard.
It seemed so useless.Then i know what i had to do.
If i couldnt live life without u,obviously one way left,one rule.
Dont give up,I want you back baby.
Im obsessed,people may think im crazy.
But i juz cant bear to give up,after all we have been through.
I still need you,i dont know bout you but crying aint cool.
So i wun,i will lift my head up high.
And get you back,regardless by kisses,poems or pies.
My happy sunshine,smiling and laughing,
Im gonna get you.I swear im coming.
Wait for me.I dun believe your feelings are dwindling.
This is just another obstacle right?Im believing.
Our feelings for each other,they wont fade for eternity.
Jeraldyn.Im Snatching.I cherished,I loved.things didnt work out.I will change.Watch out.I still got my last batch of stars and one last poem waiting for you.Friend.
Friday, November 14, 2008 ;; 3:44 AM
NEW BLOG SONG.For you baby.Wo Ye Xiang Hui Dao Guo Qu.
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 / 时间在旁闷不吭声
yi zhan huang huang jiu jiu de deng / shi jian zai pang men bu keng sheng
An old yellow lamp / time beside me, not making a sound
寂寞下手毫无分寸 / 不懂得轻重之分
ji mo xia shou hao wu fen cun / bu dong de qing zhong zhi fen
Loneliness mercilessly on me / not knowing different intensities (of light and hard)
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
chen mo zhi cheng yue guo mo sheng / jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun
Quietness has crossed over to strangeness / quietly looking at morning and sunset
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉
ni de shen ying / shi qu ping heng / man man xia chen
Your silhouette / losing balance / falling slowly
黑暗已在空中盘旋 / 该往哪我看不见
hei an yi zai kong zhong pan xuan / gai wang na wo kan bu jian
Darkness is already encircling us in the sky / where I should face? I can't see
也许爱在梦的另一端 / 无法存活在真实的空间
ye xu ai zai meng de ling yi duan / wu fa cun huo zai zhen shi de kong jian
Perhaps love is at the other end of a dream / unable to survive in the realms of reality
Chorus
想回到过去 / 试著抱你在怀里
xiang hui dao guo qu / shi zhe bao ni zai huai li
Want to return to the past / to try to hug you
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
xiu qie de lian dai you yi dian zhi qi
Blushing (shy) face has a little childish side
想看你的看的世界 / 想在你梦的画面
xiang kan ni de kan de shi jie / xiang zai ni meng de hua mian
Want to see the world you see / want to be in your dreams
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
zhi yao kao zai yi qi jiu neng gan jue tian mi
Only if we lean on each other can we feel the sweetness (or blissfulness)
想回到过去 / 试著让故事继续
xiang hui dao guo qu / shi zhe rang gu shi ji xu
Want to return to the past / to try to allow the story to continue
至少不再让你离我而去
zhi shao bu zai rang ni li wo er qu
At least I won't allow you to leave me again
分散时间的注意 / 这次会抱得更紧
fen san shi jian de zhu yi / zhe ci hui bao de geng jin
I'll take note when we part / to hug you even tighter
这样挽留不知 / 还来不来得及
zhe yang wan liu bu zhi / hai lai bu lai de jii
This sort of salvage effort, I don't know if it's still in time
想回到过去
xiang hui dao guo qu
Want to return to the past
思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放
si xu bu duan zu dang zhe hui yi bo fang
Emotions keep stopping the memories playing (in my head)
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
mang mu de zhui xun reng ran kong kong dang dang
Blindly chasing and looking yet still empty-handed (or in vain)
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
hui meng meng de ye wan shui yi you bu zhi duo dao na qu
On a grey and unclear night, I don't know where sleep has hidden
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
yi zhuan shen gu dan yi tang zai shen pang
Before I know it loneliness is already lying beside me
Repeat Chorus
沉默支撑跃过陌生 / 静静看着凌晨黄昏
chen mo zhi cheng yue guo mo sheng / jing jing kan zhe ling chen huang hun
Quietness has crossed over to strangeness / quietly looking at morning and sunset
你的身影 / 失去平衡 / 慢慢下沉
ni de shen ying / shi qu ping heng / man man xia chen
Your silhouette / losing balance / falling slowly
想回到过去
xiang hui dao guo qu
Want to return to the past
I believe all of u want to too right?
Thursday, November 13, 2008 ;; 8:17 PM
Got a quiz tagged by luoting...so yea.
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blogs .
B. Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse . These people must state who they are tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by .
C. Continue this game by sending it to other people . The eight people are ;
Err...Eleanor,Jessica,Weijie,Zoey,Tiffany Chan,Huijun,Eugene,Jon.Yea.
1. What have you been doing recently ?
Mapling.CS-ing.DotA-ing.In front of com 14 hours everyday.
2. Do you ever turn ur cellphone off ?
Neverrrrrr.
3. What happened at 10am today ?
Piano.Eww..
4. When did you last cry ?
DUN TELL YOU.SOMEBODY KNOWS.
5. Believe in fate/ destiny ?
Should be.
6. What do you want in your life now ?
MORE OUTINGS.come on im dying.and weijie our basketball tgt.
7. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated ?
Ask her.Im not sure.
8. Are you wearing anything that u borrowed from someone ?
Time.
9. What was the last movie u caught ?
Lakeview terrace.WTFOMGBBQSUXXOR movie.
10. Does the person know that u like him/her ?
yes -.-
11. Who always make you laugh ?
I dunno.everyone?
12. Do you speak any other language other than English ?
Jap.I dunno chinese im no china scholar.
13. Favourite website(s)?
I dunno?Crunchyroll,bleachexile...her blog i guess ><
14. What are you doing tomorrow ?
Tuition.And maple.-.-
15 . What do you think you are like ?
something! who knows
16. Who will you choose to die with ?
No one.
17. Where have you been today ?
House.Later going compass.LONG JOHN SILVER (=
18. What games do you play often ?
Up there.
19. Who are you missing right now ?
No one.
20. If you had to choose between a friend and a love , who will you choose ?
Ong bears favourite.Coin toss.Most prob love =XX
21. What are you doing right now ?
erm.music quiz maple.
22. Which school are you from ?
zhss..
23. Name 3 colours what you like ?
BLACKWHITERED
24. What emotion do you like to show ?
xD (= )= @_@
25. What is your life to you ?
Something that is...quite happy (=
26 . If you have something troubling you , what will you do ?
Juz bottle it up.Its nobodys business anyw.
27. Who did you last chat with in msn today ?
I dunno....Haven chat yet.juz mapled like shit.
28. Who do you admire the most ?
GeneralCross.SHISHO!!!
29 .Which month were you born in ?
Februaryyyy!
30. How are you feeling right now ?
Ass dam pain.tis chair no cushion one.
31. What is the time now ?
12.12 COOL RITE (=
32. What kind of person do you think the one who last tagged you ?
Hmm..Shes a good and cute meimei xD
33. What colour do you use to dye hair ?
BLACK (= No dye T_T
34. Why are you doing this test ?
Im bored.
35 . What do you do when you are moody ?
Rewatch eyeshield 21 or go eat (=
36. At which age do you wish to get married ?
Erm.I dunno?
37. Who is more important to you ?
Everyone.Not bluffing (=
38. If today is the last day of your life , what will you do ?
CB!I NID 3RD JOB ONE LEH!
39 . Who is the person you trust most ?
Her.And.Fk but jessica u better not say anything (=
40 .Do you believe in seeing a rainbow before rain ?
Nah.After.
41. If you have a dream come true , what will it be ?
Everything to stay like now.2e5 forever.Her forever.Maple forever @_@
42. What is your goal for this year ?
3rd job.WAYYY possible.Next would be to be 180 by tis year!CHIONG MILK!
43 . Do you believe in enternity love ?
Sadly.Yes.
44. What feeling do you love most ?
EMO (= when im happy i will miss emoing.
45.Do you really think it's Global Warming right now ?
Nah.Im turning on the air con xD not warm at all.
46. What feelings do you hate the most ?
Being angry wif SOMEBODY.
47. Do you like doing quizes ?
Nah.waste of time.but i have no choice (=
48 . Do you believe in God ?
Everyone has a god.Mine is Cross.(=
49 . Who cares for you most ?
My family and frens.I dunno bout u xDD
50 . What do you think is the most important thing in your life ?
My computer.Right jeffrey?
51 . What will you bring when u fight ?
I dun fight.Im a gd boy (= if i do i bring everything the opponent has.Chilvary u noe.
52 . What have you done regretted in your whole life ?
Making her sad ><
53 What would you do if nobody cared for you any longer ?
Hmm...Jump (= no one cares anyw.
54 . What if your girlfriend/boyfriend two-timed you ?
I dunno.Is she? (= up to her lo.
55. How do you feel now ?
ERm.BORED.VEH bored.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 ;; 11:01 PM
Sry guys.
I was bored aand asked jessica out and she asked all of u but i still like show u all attitude nvr come for the movie.Realised i was wrong but seriously.Friends come second to me so sry.At least i came after the movie i tink.Realli sry.done.Jessica dun complain anymore.i posted.I dun feel like doing anything le.i deserve to die.bye.I dun care what happens.Its always been my fault.Glad you have done so much for me.Thankyou.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008 ;; 12:09 AM
1. The 1st person who tag/pass you is?
Chen Yixuan Jessica.(i remembered)
2. Your relationship with him/her
my good fren emokid.
3. Your five impression of him/her
emokid.emokid.emokid.emokid.***** gf.=XX
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done to you?
inspiring me to leave an emokid fringe too (=
5. The most memorable things he/she had said for you?
STUPID BABY?LOL.
6. If he/she become your lover, you will?
Get slapped and whacked by somebody alot.
7. If he/she became your lover, you will?
SAME ANSWER -.-
8. If he/she became your enemy, you will?
not possible (= im too lovable.LOL
9. If he/she became your enemy,the reason will be?
i smacked her for no reason and she smacks me back, or the other way round
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
AHEM.Couple Agency here.Ahem.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
EMOKID.
12. How you think people around you feel about you?
i think...im juz a normal guy wif an oily face to them xD
13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Noobness.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Too....Badtempered (=
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
I dunno.im fine wif it this way.
16. For the people who care and like you, say something to them
Arigato (=
17. Pass this quiz to 10 person you wish to know how they feel about you
erm.. i suppose i can only pass this to ppl with blogs so,
1) jessica
2)Luoting
3)Eleanor
4)Jeraldyn
5)Zoey
6)Lydia
7)Huijun
8) Camilla
9) Tiffany Chan
10)Turkey?
hAnyhow put.
18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
CHOCOLATE.=XX
19. Is no.9 a male or female?
none.My BESTFREN (= female la.
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Erm...Dun tink they are gd together at all.
21. What is no.2 studying about?
Sec 1 stuff (= haha nooob.
22. When was the last time you had a chat?
1 min ago.
23. What kind of music band no.8 like?
ermerm...i dunno.love songs?
24. Does no.1 has any siblings?
and qiqi de magnificent
and jerrold the fabulous
25. Will you woo no.3?
Already wooed?-.-
26. How about no.7?
i dont think so,
no wait.
IM SURE i wont
27. Is no.4 single?
i duno.tink so.
28. What is the surname of no.5?
Loh.
29. What's the hobby of no.10?
Making many personalities.
30. Does no.5 and 9 get along?
YEA (=
31. Where is no.2 studying at?
sadly, ZHSS
32. Talk something casually about no.1
Hmm...EMOKID.i duno wad else @_@
33. Where does no.9 live at?
A private house wif 2 elephants at the gate wif a cool brother's bedroom xD
34. What coulour does no.4 like?
ERm.Bright?
35. Are no. 5 and no.1 best friends?
They get along well i tink (=
36. Does no.1 have any pets?
does koi fish count? O.O
no wait.
she used to have tortoises,
four of them.
all four of them die-ed
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
LOl.dun tink so.she tinks eugene is (=
38. What is no.6 doing now?
erm.i dunno?talking to chocolate?
Stupid quiz to kill time.No lifed at maple today already.Now i dunno wattodo.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008 ;; 6:22 PM
3e3.
Well i cant say im happy but at least its my 2nd choice (= bio rules.And luckily ppl like eleanor jun yw zoey huijun they all there.No fun guys WTP.Lucky yurong morgan they all there but not really close.haiz.KENAN!IM APPEALING!3e2!!!Err....Mixed feelings bout it =XX but ytd was really fun xD coffin.HSM3.WOO (= dam funny la the coffin.see zoey sheena camilla jieming chelvin tiffany chan all dunno how watch horror movie one.SIBEI funny (= noe why shutter say horror movie become funny movie le.HSM3 was well.retarded xDDD
